HeartBeat

Its the 6th day of Ramadhan..A holy month where Muslims all over the world abstain from food, drink, and other physical needs during the daylight hours. As a time to purify the soul, refocus attention on God, and practice self-sacrifice, Ramadan is much more than just not eating and drinking.

This is the time when I have to make use of it to focus myself to HIM, the Mighty Allah. Even during this holy month, no syaitan to disturb our ibadah, but my mind still thinking of MR Flare..I just cannot get rid of him…Until one time, it did break my tears…Its falling like the raindrops on the sea…couldnt stop…i can feel my heart beats faster than normally it does…what should i do? What should i do to protect my feelings? Every single moment…Im missing him…Im missing his smile, his back, his voice. But when hes right in front of me, Im too afraid to look up…afraid that he will figure out my true feelings…

I never thought that it will be this hurt..really hurt…I really need strength..Ya Allah, I need U!